Saturday, 26 September 2009

Get a life!

More than six bloody long months since I blogged last.
I disconnected my internet connection as a part of my ‘final year slogging’ routine.
Last night I decided I’d continue blogging and post them later on – ‘later on’ being when I get over this phase of my life which could, quite appropriately, be called ‘living hell’.

Past six months in brief:
It is my last year in college and day after day I am becoming more aware of how the past four and half years in medical school have been such a waste because I seem to not know anything about anything. My ignorance scares me – in addition to scaring my professors, my family and my future patients.
College sucks.
Lovelife was, is and (to my absolute relief) will remain as Rembrandts very aptly put it in the F.R.I.E.N.D.S. theme song ‘dead on arrival’.
Birthday was spent as a glutton.
Depression is rampant.
Bickering is infinite.
Sleep is the only solution – which is scarce, thanks to being an insomniac.
Life, basically, has come to a standstill.

Past six months – not worth blogging about.

My imagination, however, has not let me down.
Very often I think of many things to blog about.
Don’t seem to remember any now.

What I would really like right now would be to ‘get a life’.
It is a phrase that is so often used amongst the ‘cool dudes’ as a derogatory comment towards ‘losers’ that until recently I didn’t really think about what it meant.
Now why would you tell somebody to ‘get a life’?
Obviously it is sort of a piece of advice.
Get a life because you don’t have one and badly need one or maybe because you don’t have a functional or satisfactory ‘life’.
It would be similar to telling someone to get a laptop instead of a PC or to get a microwave instead of an oven or to get a room instead of…
On second thought cancel off the last example – it is inappropriate.

So I need to get a life.
Not that I don’t have one already.
I do have a really slow and a constantly malfunctioning life which obviously needs to be either replaced or renewed.
Replacement is my only option because, frankly, I do not believe in recycled material. No matter what you environmentalists think, recycled material is second hand material.
And I like first hand.
Second hand is unbearable even if it was ‘first handed’ by me (weird thought).
So it is a complete no to recycling this existing life.
I should get rid of it and then get a new one.
Now the question is whether I should get rid of this life before getting a new one or should I try out the new one and make sure it is properly functioning before getting rid of this life.
The logical option would be the latter.

So currently my plan is to think of ways in which I should get rid of this life I have while looking out for a new one.
Meanwhile you people can fill me in on where I can get to shop for cool lives – be warned I like it when I have a lot to choose from.

P.S.: Sorry folks, I have just realised that I have completely lost my marbles.


One Bizarre Scribe said...

lol.. all of that sounds amazingly familiar. loved the first hand-seconda hand part. g'luck wit the quarter-life crisis!

Another Blogger said...

@ One Bizarre Scribe : thanks. i know people say this quite often but honestly "i need it".

Jane Turley said...

Cheer up Another Blogger - you're approaching the end of a gruelling course and it's tough right now because you know there's a few months ahead where they'll be no fundamental change in your routine. But the end IS in sight! Soon you'll be qualified and if then medicine still isn't for you there's nothing to stop you going a completely different direction. By sticking with your course you will have shown immense stamina and dedication. Personally I think any employer would have to admire someone who came to them and said " I discovered medicine wasn't the right vocation but stuck with it to prove I have the abilities."

And everyone thinks that they know sod all come exam time - but when the crunch comes you will remember far more than you think:)

In a few months time the weight of exams will be off you, you'll be free to go places, try temporary jobs. Whatever. I'm sure you'll start to feel heaps better - and your happiness will attract men. They love happy women!

Don't give up now, finish the course, tick the box and move on. You know you can do it! And keep blogging; get all the negative thoughts out of your head by having a bloody good whinge. (I do it all the time!)Writing is my therapy - works a treat for me maybe it'll work for you:))

The Genesis of Oblivion said...

Finally!!..she is awake!!!...Glad to see your blog..and glad to see that you are 'Getting a life' =P

manjiT said...

u've struck the cord for me....m in the same boat as u.
u wont believe how much i could read myself in this post. except for the sleep thing (i've become hypersomniac).
i've big plans for the life thats about to follow this final year. maybe i shall put a huge post on my blog with regards to how i suppose to reincarnate myself in a few months time...

Another Blogger said...

@ Jane Turley : At least I see the light at the end of the dark tunnel. I just wish I could fast forward my way there. But Im sure there will be some other monster waiting to receive me with open arms then. All I can think of to say is "bring it on!!!"

@ The Genesis of Oblivion : Im glad to be back even if it is on a temporary and fleeting basis. And God am I glad to see my number of followers. I thought everyone would have given up on my blog.

@ manjit : Ahhh fellow medicos...welcome to the abode of the Enlightened One. Hope you survive long.

Related Posts with Thumbnails